Mencintai dan Dicintai..

saya mahu kedua-duanya..

saya mahu mencintai kamu..

dan saya mahu dicintai kamu..

amiin..

Awak..

Awak..

saya nak tujukan banyak lagu untuk awak..tapi saya tak tau awak suka ke tak lagu2 tu..

Awak..

saya selalu ingat awak..tak boleh lupa awak..

Awak..

badan saya menggeletar bila fikir awak..mata saya berkaca kerna ingin melihat awak..

Awak..

saya mahu awak terus tersenyum..terus gembira..dengan saya..

Awak..

saya benar2 mahu awak terima saya..mahu awak di sisi saya..mahu awak jaga hati saya..

Awak..

saya sentiasa ada di sini untuk awak..saya nak awak tau..saya tak mahu tinggalkan awak..

Awak..

berilah peluang kepada saya untuk lafazkan cinta kepada awak..saya tahu ia sukar bagi awak..untuk terima cinta lagi..

Awak..

saya sayang awak..

Bermula Kembali

Assalamualaikum..dah lama x menjengah ke blog sendiri..asyik baca blog orang je..well..life is ok..a bit dull..a bit dumb..with a little pinch of sadness but with a few scoops of happiness..hmm..camne nak elak jadi emo..agak susah..people cannot read my heart out..

em.saya ingin jadi seperti dulu..ceria..menyeronokkan..kepoh..kelakar..

i guess i have changed a lot..sometimes i have this feeling that this is not me anymore..

i am more carefree right now..i just dont care about many things..i just care about people who are very close to me only.hmm..but i really care so much..too much i think..

sometimes i'm hurt because of being like this..sometimes i feel sad..sedih jika kita ambil berat orang tapi orang tak peduli kita..kawan2..keluarga..dan especially yg kita cintai..tp..saya tau awak cuba sedaya upaya awak..or even if you're not trying..but you still appreciate what you have..that is enough for me..

hmm..saya suka bella's lullaby kat blog ni.sangat tenang..ada macam2 emosi dalam lagu ni..cinta,gembira,sedih..macam2..all in a single song.

Falling All Over Again..

you're lipstick stains
on the front lobe of my
left side brains
i knew i wouldn't forget you
and so i went and let you
blow my mind

your sweet moving
the smell of you in every
single dream i dream
i knew when we collided
you're the one i have decided
who's one of my kind

i don't wanna miss
a single thing you do
toninght

just in time
i'm so glad you have
a one track mind like me
you gave my life direction
a game show love connection
we can't deny

i'm so obsessed
my heart is bound to beat
right out my untrimmed chest
i believe in you
like a virgin, you're madonna
and i'm always gonna wanna blow your mind

the way you can cut a rug
watching you is the only drug i need
so gangster, i'm so thug
you're the one i'm dreaming of

you see, i can be myself now finally
in fact there's nothing i can't be
i want the world to see you'll be with me

hey soul sister
i don't wanna miss
a single thing you do
tonight..

Shaza..read my heart..i want you..

More and More

everyday..my love for you grows more and more..

owh..i don't wanna miss from seeing you..

can't stop the tears from rolling when i think of you..

joyful tears..

i have a lot to say..

but i'm speechless..

i just can say..

how much i love you..

and may it grows stronger by each and every day..

may it be blessed..

may it stays till the end of time..

Me No Weakening..Yet

Eenie Meenie

(Sean)
Eenie meenie miney mo
Catch a bad chick by her toe
If she holla (if, if, if she holla) let her go

Shes indecisive
She can't decide
She keeps on lookin
From left to right

Girl, c'mon get closer
Look in my eyes
Searchin is so wrong
Im Mr. Right

You seem like the type
To love 'em and leave 'em
And disappear right after this song.
So give me the night
To show you, hold you
Dont leave me out here dancin' alone

You cant make up your mind, mind, mind, mind, mind
Please dont waste my time, time, time, time, time
Im not tryin to rewind, wind, wind, wind, wind
I wish our hearts could come together as one

Cause shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova
Shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova
Shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova
Shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova

(Justin)
Let me show you what your missin
Paradise
With me youre winning girl
You dont have to roll the dice
Tell me what youre really here for
Them other guys?
I can see right through ya

You seem like the type
To love em and leave em
And disappear right after the song.
So give me the night
To show you, hold you
Dont leave me out here dancin alone

Cant make up your mind
Please dont waste my time
Not tryin to rewind
I wish our hearts could come together as one

Cause shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova
Shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova
Shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova
Shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova

(Sean)
Eenie meenie miney moe
Catch a bad chick by her toe
If she holla (if, if, if she holla) let her go
Eenie meenie miney moe
Catch a bad chick by her toe
If she holla (if, if, if she holla) let her go

Shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova
Shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova
Shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova
Shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova

Cant make up your mind
Please dont waste my time
Not tryin to rewind
I wish our hearts could come together as one
(repeat)

hmm....

I Really Do..

Love is like a lump of gold,

Hard to get, and hard to hold.

Of all the girls I've ever met,

You're the one I can't forget.

I do believe that God above,

Created you for me to love.

He chose you from all the rest,

Because he knew I would love you best.

Sinar Indah di Wajahnya..

Malam ini sungguh ku gembira..
dapat kulihat wajahnya..anggun mempesona...
ku gembira dengar tawanya..riang indah...
ku senyum melihat keletahnya...tenang ceria...

setiap detik masa bersamanya sangat bermakna...
tak ingin ku tinggalkan dirinya walau sesaat...
ada saja tempat yang ingin ku bawa...
supaya dapat ku luangkan lebih masa bersama...

tatkala dia harus pulang...
ku luahkan kata cinta...
ku lihat dia gembira..
ku kucup dan kubelai tangannya...
ku lihat dia bahagia...

ku sayang dirimu sepenuh hati..
ku cinta dirimu seikhlas hati..
ku harap kau terima cintaku ini..
ku damba bahagia ini kekal abadi..


p/s..sori berterabur..hehe

Aku gila..

ya..aku memang gila........
gilakan dia.....



(*_____________________*) <= senyum psiko..hehehehe


aaaaaaa....
sape dia tu?
hahahaha.....
adik manis..oo..adik manis..mana pigi?
hehehehe....
alamak..dia p clas la...haih..xleh kcau..xleh kcau...







ok..seriously..this is krazee..buat keje weyh!!
penangan terdengar lagu jiwang zaman 90an di pagi hari....chess3..
yeyey...esok satu hari cuti..mau jumpe nenek yg tersayang..kerinduan sgt...
there are 4 girls that i love the most in my life now..hehehe.
first is my mother..
second is my grandma..
third is my sister..
fourth..of course la...s.h.a.z.a..ngeh3..



ok..da kul 9...aku da distracted gile...
bye2..





hmmm..
masih byk persoalan yg belum terjawab...aku gusar..

Questions..

Is it the right choice??
Is it the right time??
Am I on the right path??
Am I doing the right move??
Did I give the right thing??
Did I say the right words??

Lots of questions..

Can I answer myself?I wonder...

One day I'll find my answers...

=)









OWH God i HaTe Mondays and Tuesdays......Urghh..can i skip these two days?

Expectations..

Well i seem couldn't run away from any expectations from my parents...mom called and said that there's a college which a friend of dad work as director there and he wants English lecturers there..it's in Kuala Terengganu..hmm....hmmmmm.....xnaakkk...i dun wana be teacher or lecturer..i don't think i'm destined to be one..hehe..

what do i do next huh?my plan..work..save money in 2 years..buy house..buy cars..and get married..ngahaha..
where to work?rezeki Allah di mana2...no need to worry..well..mane nk cari rm500000 huh?guess i've to work hard on my business after this..hee..c'mon..i can do it..oyeahh..

hmm..tgh lapa..so berangan lebih..xpe2..ini juga doa..aminn.....
cik shaza farah..kamu sudah makan kah?hehe..

The Sweetest Thing..

it's 3.15am and i still couldn't sleep..

been spending time wif Ikey..listening to songs and whatever..

like usual..missing Shaza...

she's like the sweetest thing..

yes she is..after all this time that i've been spending wif her..

i get to learn lots n lots of things..bout her..bout me..bout life..

i adore her in many ways..if she's reading this..she might ask me what n why..

haha..i can't tell u the answer dear..it's sumthing that makes me ME..

i always like to watch people..observe their behavior n stuffs..

i learn lots of things from the observation..and i don't need reasons to do that..

somehow, i learned that i have to appreciate more..

of people around me..of what i have..of what i like..of who i love..

there are ups and downs in life..we have cycles..

some cycles are big..some are small..i guess mine is quite big..

insyaAllah..with Allah's willing..i'm going up..

i'm gonna smile all the way up..

i don't wanna fake my smiles anymore..

i wanna be happy..i've always make people happy before..

but i sacrificed my own happiness..

i want this to be last..my best friends understand me the most..

and i'll be happier if Shaza can become part of my life..

OMG she's so adorable..can't stop thinking of her..can't even stop smiling because of her..

i remembered our conversation,i mean ym with her this afternoon..

i just wanna know..i want her to make her best decision..

i don't wanna force or anything..it's up to her to accept me or not..

i'm just very glad i know her..sometimes tears come rolling when i think of her..not because of sadness..

but of gratefulness..i do love u..

yeah..it's like a very short time to love somebody..

i'm sincere..and honest with my feelings..

i don't play with hearts because i know how hard it affects our life..my life..

erm..my past affected me a lot..my decisions..are prone to be bad..

no time to regret..i wanna start anew..i wanna become my real self..

well..i guess that's enough..

just another soliloquy from me..

i miss you..

Chipsmore dan Cinta..

It's 5.09 in the morning..I'm still not sleeping..
Eating chipsmore..formatting a laptop..
Texting her to keep her company coz she's doing some works..=)
Teasing her a lil' bit..Owh..I miss her sooo much!!
She must be smiling non stop rite now..hehehe..

Shaza comot..I love u..hehehe

Kebosanan dan Kerinduan

haih....ari ni ade seminar pulak..nantok nyer...

budak tecik balik ari ni...rindu pulak wlaupon die balik mlm ni..heehehehe...

i really3 cannot take my eyes off you la.....

zzzzz....gonna take a nap n gonna dream about you lah..heeeee...

mish you..='(

Dia...

Temukan apa arti di balik cerita
hati ini terasa berbunga-bunga
membuat seakan aku melayang terbuai asmara

adakah satu arti dibalik tatapan
tersipu malu akan sebuah senyuman
membuat suasana menjadi nyata
begitu indahnya

dia seperti apa yang selalu kunantikan, aku inginkan
dia melihatku apa adanya seakan ku sempurna

tanpa buai kata tercuri hatiku
dia tunjukkan dengan tulus cintanya
terasa berbeda
saat bersamanya
aku jatuh cinta

dia seperti apa yang selalu kunantikan, kuinginkan
dia oh dia melihatku apa adanya seakan ku sempurna
dia seperti apa yang selalu kunantikan, aku inginkan
dia melihatku apa adanya seakan ku sempurna

dia bukakan pintu hatiku yang lama tak bisa
percayakan cinta hingga dia disni
memberi cinta ku harapan

dia seperti apa yang selalu kunantikan, aku inginkan
dia melihatku apa adanya seakan ku sempurna
dia seperti apa yang kunantikan, aku inginkan
dia dia melihatku apa adanya seakan ku sempurna

give me your love
give me your love now
so come on and love me
come on and love me

I Heart...=)

I Heart Her..

the little girl with a Big Wonderful Heart..
the little girl with a Big Joyful Smile..
the little girl with a pair of Big Beautiful Eyes..
the little girl with a Sweet Darling Voice..

Owh..
I am Happy to Make U Happy..
Glad I Found U..
I Heart U..

Neorago..=)

translation for SuJu's song It's You..

It’s You (너라고)

ENGLISH

It’s you (It’s you) It’s you (It’s you)
For me, it’s only you (It’s you) It’s you

I don’t need anyone else, I just want you
Even if you ask again, I just want you
You might already have a different lover
But there’s nothing I can do
I can’t turn back now Oh
The moment I caught your eye
The moment you drove a nail into my heart
Regretfully, I chose you
Yes, it’s you

Oh, even if anybody, anybody says anything
I doesn’t matter to me
Even if anybody, anybody bad mouths me
I will only look at you
Even if I am born again
It will only ever be you
Tic toc, tic toc
Even is time goes by, oh I
Even if I tell you I love you
One thousand, ten thousand times
Until my heart bursts into flames
And my dry lips wear away
Even if I am born again
It will only ever be you
Tic toc, tic toc
Even is time goes by, oh I

Oh, oh, only for you
Oh, oh, only for you
Oh, oh, only for you
Oh, oh, only for you
Oh, oh, only for you
Oh, oh, only for you
Oh, oh, only for you

I don’t need any words, I just want you
Even if you say it’s too late, I just want you
I know this love is wrong
But I can’t give up, I can’t let go oh, oh
I call you again with my cold lips
Searching, I call out for you hotly
You don’t reply, but I will still wait for you

Oh, even if anybody, anybody says anything
I doesn’t matter to me
Even if anybody, anybody bad mouths me
I will only look at you
Even if I am born again
It will only ever be you
Tic toc, tic toc
Even is time goes by, oh I
Even if I tell you I love you
One thousand, ten thousand times
Until my heart bursts into flames
And my dry lips wear away
Even if I am born again
It will only ever be you
Tic toc, tic toc
Even is time goes by, oh I

For me, it’s you, it’s you, I
(Why don’t you know, why don’t you know)
For me, it’s you, it’s you, I

Oh, even if anybody, anybody says anything
I doesn’t matter to me
Even if anybody, anybody bad mouths me
I will only look at you
Even if I am born again
It will only ever be you
Tic toc, tic toc
Even is time goes by, oh I
Even if I tell you I love you
One thousand, ten thousand times
Until my heart bursts into flames
And my dry lips wear away
Even if I am born again
It will only ever be you
Tic toc, tic toc
Even is time goes by, oh I

It’s you (It’s you) It’s you (It’s you)
For me, it’s only you (It’s you) It’s you

Reason..

Why Shaza Farah?

hehehe..

because........

umm..because you're you..
i love to see ur smile..
i love it when u really treasure my gifts for u..
i like it when you giggles..
i respect ur opinion and points..
i am amazed with you..
i like it when u listen to a song,u give full attention..hehe
i really2 like ur eyes..feels like i can find treasures when i look in it..haha
i like to have ur company..
i like ur straightforwardness..it's really convenient..hehe
i would like to take care of u for i am a really caring person..
i think we can understand each other..
i would like to know u more..by myself..not from what i've heard..because it's funny to hear about u and it gets funnier when i discover by myself..hehehe

well..the longer it goes, the longer this list is gonna be..hehe..but I really like..adore..n love u..

so..this is from me..=)

My Baby You

special dedication for you...


as i look into your eyes
i see all the reasons why
my life's worth a thousand skies
you're the simplest love i've known
and the purest one i'll own
know you'll never be alone
[chorus:]
my baby you
are the reason i could fly
and 'cause of you
i don't have to wonder why
baby you
there's no more just getting by
you're the reason i feel so alive
though these words i say are true
they still fail to capture you
as mere words can only do
how do i explain that smile
and how it turns my world around
keeping my feet on the ground
[repeat chorus]
i will soothe you if you fall
i'll be right there in your core
you're my greatest love of all
[repeat chorus]
arianna i feel so alive

I Told Her Already..

Fuhhhh...I told her what I feel already..I dont really know and expect what she's gonna say to me..I know 

that she knew about it already without me telling it but I think I just have to do it..I mean say it..worrhh..

My brain is freezing already now...aiyo..

Kelu..

Bila hati dah suka..tapi lidah kelu..jantung berdebar2..aduh..
tapi..die nampak positif je..hmm..tensi pulak di sini..

When I Look At You

Currently listening to this song and singing along to it..=)


Everybody needs inspiration
Everybody needs a song
A beautiful melody
When the night's are long
Cause there is no guarantee
That this life is easy

Yeah, when my world is falling apart
When there's no light to break up the dark
That's when I, I, I look at you
When the waves are flooding the shore and I
Can't find my way home anymore
That's when I, I, I look at you

When I look at you
I see forgiveness
I see the truth
You love me for who I am
Like the stars hold the moon
Right there where they belong and I know
I'm not alone

Yeah, when my world is falling apart
When there's no light to break up the dark
That's when I, I, I look at you
When the waves are flooding the shore and I
Can't find my way home anymore
That's when I, I, I look at you

You appear just like a dream to me
Just like kaleidoscope colors that
Cover me
All I need
Every breath, that I breathe
Dontcha know?
You're beautiful

Yeah yeah..

When the waves are flooding the shore
And I cant find my way home anymore
Thats when I,
I I look at you
I look at you

Yeah yeah..
Oh oh..
You appear just like a dream to me

Makan Tak Lalu..

Haiya..wa rasa x boley makan la..tido pon x boley juga la..haiya...senyum banyak2 saja..

haiya...ini bole mati ka?

A New Chapter

It's the beginning of a new chapter in my life...I really hope it's going to be ok..I hope this journey will be blessed and will be wonderful.

Owh..I really can't wait for the movie "Hachiko: A Dog's Story"..It's a very touching movie..Wah..why la I'm so into humane movies lately..Not just movies..everything..

Heartbreaking..Isn't It?

You Were My Everything

[Talking:] 

This goes out to someone that was 

Once the most important person in my life 

I didn’t realize it at the time 

I can’t forgive myself for the way I treated you so 

I don’t really expect you to either 

It’s just... I don’t even know 

Just listen… 

You’re the one that I want, the one that I need 

The one that I gotta have just to succeed 

When I first saw you, I knew it was real 

I’m sorry about the pain I made you feel 

That wasn’t me; let me show you the way 

I looked for the sun, but it’s raining today 

I remember when I first looked into your eyes 

It was like God was there, heaven in the skies 

I wore a disguise 'cause I didn’t want to get hurt 

But I didn’t know I made everything worse 

You told me we were crazy in love 

But you didn’t care when push came to shove 

If you loved me as much as you said you did 

Then you wouldn’t have hurt me like I ain’t shit 

Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me 

I loved you with my heart, really and truly 

I guess you forgot about the times that we shared 

When I would run my fingers through your hair 

Late nights, just holding you in my arms 

I don’t know how I could do you so wrong 

I really wanna show you I really need to hold you 

I really wanna know you like no one else could know you 

You’re number one, always in my heart 

And now I can’t believe that our love is torn apart 

[Chorus:] 

I need you and 

I miss you and 

I want you and 

I love you ‘cause 

I wanna hold you, 

I wanna kiss you 

You were my everything 

And I really miss you [2x] 

I knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man 

And then sit and laugh as you’re holding his hand 

The thought of that just shatters my heart 

It breaks in my soul and it tears me apart 

At times we was off I was scared to show you 

Now I wanna hold you until I can’t hold you 

Without you, everything seems strange 

Your name is forever planted in my brain 

Damn it, I’m insane, 

Take away the pain 

Take away the hurt 

Baby, we can make it work 

What about when you 

Looked into my eyes 

Told me you loved me 

As you would hugged me 

I guess everything you said was a lie 

I think about it, it brings tears to my eyes 

Now I’m not even a thought in your mind 

I can see clearly, my love is not blind 

[Chorus:] 

I need you and 

I miss you and 

I want you and 

I love you ‘cause 

I wanna hold you, 

I wanna kiss you 

You were my everything 

And I really miss you [2x] 

[Talking:] 

I just wish everything could have turned out differently 

I had a special feeling about you 

I thought maybe you did too 

You would understand, but… 

No matter what, you’ll always be in my heart 

You’ll always be my baby 

Our first day, it seemed so magical 

I remember all the time that I had with you 

Remember when you first came to my house? 

You looked like an angel wearing that blouse 

We hit it off, I knew it was real 

But now I can’t take all the pain that I feel 

Reach in your heart, I know I’m still there 

I don’t wanna hear that you no longer care 

Remember the times? Remember when we kissed? 

I didn’t think you would ever do me like this 

I didn’t think you’d wanna see me depressed 

I thought you’d be there for me, this I confess 

You said you were my best friend, was that a lie? 

Now I’m nothing to you, you’re with another guy 

I tried, I tried, I tried, and I’m trying 

Now on the inside it feels like I’m dying 

[Chorus:] 

I need you and 

I miss you and 

I want you and 

I love you ‘cause 

I wanna hold you, 

I wanna kiss you 

You were my everything 

And I really miss you [2x] 

[Talking:] 

And I do miss you 

I just thought we were meant to be 

I guess now, we’ll never know 

The only thing I want is for you to be happy 

Whether it be with me, or without me 

I just want you to be happy

I HATE Shitty Movies!!

I hate shitty movies..I hate shitty movies..I hate shitty movies!!!!!!

u wei shaari sucks..haha..darn..why la kene tgk movie die dalam kelas..

Delete la..

Owh ya..saya seorang yang pathetic bukan..ok..kamu boleh delete segala link saya dengan kamu..delete blog saya,facebook saya,frenster saya...owh..nak delete saya dari hidup kamu pon boleh..

If u have somebody else..go for it..

I'm Sorry...I Totally Burned Out..

Huhuhu..Life is really hard..
I feel terribly burdened this semester..

Bermain di Minda..

Subhanallah..sedap2 semua lagu Maher Zain..semua duk bermain dalam fikiran ni..adui..very beautiful songs..
Especially this one..but I don't have anybody to dedicate to..huhuhuhu..

For the Rest of My Life

I praise Allah for sending me you my love
You found me home and sail with me
And I`m here with you
Now let me let you know
You`ve opened my heart
I was always thinking that love was wrong
But everything was changed when you came along
OOOOO
And theres a couple words I want to say

For the rest of my life
I`ll be with you
I`ll stay by your side honest and true
Till the end of my time
I`ll be loving you. loving you
For the rest of my life
Thru days and night
I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes
Now and forever I I`ll be there for you

I know that deep in my heart
I feel so blessed when I think of you
And I ask Allah to bless all we do
You`re my wife and my friend and my strength
And I pray we`re together eternally
Now I find myself so strong
Everything changed when you came along
OOOO
And theres a couple word I want to say

For the rest of my life
I`ll be with you
I`ll stay by your side honest and true
Till the end of my time
I`ll be loving you. loving you
For the rest of my life
Thru days and night
I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes
Now and forever I I`ll be there for you

I know that deep in my heart now that you`re here
Infront of me I strongly feel love
And I have no doubt
And I`m singing loud that I`ll love you eternally

For the rest of my life
I`ll be with you
I`ll stay by your side honest and true
Till the end of my time
I`ll be loving you.loving you
For the rest of my life
Thru days and night
I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes
Now and forever I I`ll be there for you

I know that deep in my heart

Sigh...

When I think of u..
Everything about me and inside me is breaking apart..
I'm torn..so torn apart..
This feeling so damn hard to swallow..

You see..
I'm extremely stressed..
I have nobody with me..
I have to face these extremities alone..
Usually you'll be by my side..
you always did..

Now I miss all these all over again..
I miss us..
I miss everything..

s**t..why I'm crying in the library..
sigh.........this gonna be my longest sigh..

Heartbreak Warfare..

Lightning strikes
Inside, my chest to keep me up at night

Dream of ways

To make you understand my pain

Clouds of sulfur in the air

Bombs are falling everywhere

It's heartbreak warfare

Once you want it to begin,

No one really ever wins

In heartbreak warfare

If you want more love,

why don't you say so?

If you want more love,

why don't you say so?

Drop his name

Push it in and twist the knife again

Watch my face

As I pretend to feel no pain

Clouds of sulfur in the air

Bombs are falling everywhere

It's heartbreak warfare

Once you want it to begin,

No one really ever wins

In heartbreak warfare.

If you want more love,

why don't you say so?

If you want more love,

why don't you say so?

Just say so...

How come the only way to know how high you get me

is to see how far I fall

God only knows how much I'd love you if you let me

but I can't break through at all.

It's a heartbreak...

I don't care if we don't sleep at all tonight

Let's just fix this whole thing now

I swear to God we're gonna get it right

If you lay your weapon down

Red wine and ambien

You're talking shit again, it's heartbreak warfare

Good to know it's all a game

Disappointment has a name, it's heartbreak warfare. 

real nice song...=)

Hari Baru..

Assalamualaikum..
Have u seen the tv series Awan Dania?I met someone just like that..haha..it's kinda funny..Well..nothing happens..don't worry..

This is like the 4th week of this year..and I learned that I should just go on..I'm not perfect choice for that person anyway..this is hard but hey..that person doesn't want you..don't you get it?Ok..Ok..I got it..

I've been sick last weekend..I even missed the Lions for Lambs viewing..I was sick but I really feel so lonely that I finally went out that night..and Amir came here..and we hang out together till I feel healthy again..that's the power of support..we don't need medicines when we have companions around us..being with them is enough to cure you.

Owh ya..I forgot to tell you about Wimpee and Wimsee..later la..got to go..tata..
Wassalam..

Rintihan Hati Seorang Insan...

Huhuhu..I feel sad..really2 sad..this lonely feeling is terrible...it's unbearable..I seriously feel like an alien..

You..yeah you..you said that we can still be friends..so are we?You totally ignore me..I know you can read this..It's really hard..

Ugh..I just need to be stronger..huhu..I'm sad..I'm going back to my hometown this weekend because my father is going to be hospitalized for his treatment..huhuhu..

Again..I feel totally miserable..Ya Allah..please give me your light and sympathy to me..please grant me someone to be with me..along my ups and downs..can understand me..and share with me..

I really want to get better..I've been changed..still changing..huhu..

Astaghfirullahalazim..

Penat..

Assalamualaikum..

Weekend baru ni sangat lah busy..Since budak-budak ni sibuk dengan Whoa Willow, saya pun dapat idea untuk buat charity jugak..I don't know why but lately I'm so into charity stuffs..I felt lost in my life and I need something to keep me up and awake. So I decided to make a charity sale by selling Naskah Cinta at DBKL Auditorium altogether with Willow show.. I discussed with my boss and he agreed, so I withdraw my own money for the total capital of the sale and provide 200 units of Naskah Cinta for the charity sale.

This is my own project, my idea, my effort, my money for my own charity giving..Alhamdulillah, the sale was good. Many people supported me and even the VIPs show their support and feel amazed of my effort. This is not just a sale, it's for charity and dakwah..If the person who bought Naskah Cinta from me and read it, I got pahala too..Many people like it..There are some people whom I never expect them to buy, also bought from me..Even a friend who was once hate me. Alhamdulillah..Allah is always fair and loving to His servants..

On last Sunday morning, before I went to KL, I joined my car club to a convoy to Bukit Cerakah and I managed to promote and sell Naskah Cinta there too..Most of them bought it and I feel very happy and thakful to the kindness of my fellow friends..They really are wonderful and true friends.. So far I managed to sell 100 Naskah Cinta during the last weekend.

Not to forget, I amalkan zikir and Bismillah 1000 kali supaya dimurahkan rezeki dan diberi kejayaan. It works..I also managed to promote my new blog for sharing some knowledge and for useful and meaningful products that I'm selling, www.everywhereknowledge.blogspot.com where I'm planning to market my products and also share useful information with other people out there..I want to live to inspire..

Yesterday and today, I tried to promote Naskah Cinta at my faculty and Alhamdulillah, I sold 20 so far and more coming..many people like it.. Owh ya, as for the company, I was invited to be the designer for the next batch of products..I will prepare many designs and choice of colors so that people can have a variety of choices. Due to my IT knowledge, as usual, I am also in charge in IT and technical control at the company.

Alhamdulillah..I'm glad..God please help me be useful in my life..amiin..

Here are some pictures taken during Willow..

Cerah

Subhanallah..what a wonderful and shiny day today..I start my day with coffee and lazing around in my bed while my housemate is busy getting ready to go out..he says that he wants to explore Shah Alam by bus..well, let him be..I feel like a native Shah Alam people now and he's the newbie..so, do anything you want..

I'm still thinking what to do next..huhuhu..I used to go out with loved one or my friends when we have day offs or free periods..but now nobody is going to invite me to go out with them..feel alienated a bit though..ok..not a bit..it's a lot..well..who am I to them now.

It's ok..I'll live..Owh ya..I think I'm going to Al Baasith to hang out with Abang Habib Shah and talk about dakwah..perhaps we can design a few things for our product..Owh..another thing..I have to prepare some website templates for the company who hires me to create their company website..I think I better start on that one first...right after I take my bath..haha..see ya..Wassalam..

Allah Maha Adil..

Whenever you feel bad about something..and you pray..you be positive in mind, that God gives us sorrow in the morning..but He'll reward the happiness in the afternoon..Alhamdulillah..that's what I feel today..

Despite the unprofessional situation I have this morning..Allah grants me two wonderful lecturers for the next two classes in the afternoon..

I like lots of things about today..I don't know why..Today is a bright and shiny day..seems like giving hope..Owh..and I saw her..glad to see her looking fine..

Well actually I just finished my class just now..Now I stop by at the library, just trying to have a peace of mind..
Lots of things going on inside..hmmm...be strong..

Ni memang betul2 dah takde kerja..

Saje je nak post mende ni.maybe dah ramai baca kot..tapi boleh la..
Ni kira untuk cikgu2 atau bakal cikgu la..haha..selamat membaca..dan merapik pada hari ini..
Oh ya..takde kena mengena dengan politik..jangan salah faham..

Murid-murid: Selamat pagi, cikgu.

Cikgu: (Menengking) Mengapa selamat pagi saja?
Petang dan malam, awak doakan saya tak
selamatkah?

Murid-murid: Selamat pagi, petang dan malam,
cikgu!

Cikgu: Panjang sangat tu! Tak pernah pun dibuat
oleh orang lain! Katakan saja selamat sejahtera!
Senang dan penuh bermakna. Lagipun ucapan ini
meliputi semua masa dan keadaan.

Murid-murid: Selamat sejahtera, cikgu!

Cikgu: Sama-sama, duduk! Dengar sini baik-baik.
Hari ini cikgu akan menguji kamu semua tentang
perkataan berlawan. Apabila cikgu sebutkan
perkataannya, kamu semua mesti menjawab
dengan
cepat lawan bagi perkataan-perkataan itu, faham?

Murid-murid: Faham, cikgu!

Cikgu: Saya tak mahu ada apa-apa gangguan.

Murid-murid: (senyap)

Cikgu: Pandai!

Murid-murid: Bodoh!

Cikgu: Tinggi!

Murid-murid: Rendah!

Cikgu: Jauh!

Murid-murid: Dekat!

Cikgu: Keadilan!

Murid-murid: UMNO!

Cikgu: Salah!

Murid-murid: Betul!

Cikgu: Bodoh!

Murid-murid: Pandai!

Cikgu: Bukan!

Murid-murid: Ya!

Cikgu: Oh Tuhan!

Murid-murid: Oh Hamba!

Cikgu: Dengar sini!

Murid-murid: Dengar situ!

Cikgu: Diam!

Murid-murid: Bising!

Cikgu: Itu bukan pertanyaan, bodoh!

Murid-murid: Ini adalah jawapan, pandai!

Cikgu: Mati aku!

Murid-murid: Hidup kami!

Cikgu: Rotan baru kamu tau!

Murid-murid: Akar lama tak tau!

Cikgu: Malas aku nak mengajar kamu semua!

Murid-murid: Rajin kami tak belajar cikgu!

Cikgu: Kamu gila!

Murid-murid: Kami siuman!

Cikgu: Cukup! Cukup!

Murid-murid: Kurang! Kurang!

Cikgu: Sudah! Sudah!

Murid-murid: Belum! Belum!

Cikgu: Mengapa kamu semua ini bodoh
sangat?

Murid-murid: Sebab kami semua itu pandai sikit!

Cikgu: Oh! Melawan!

Murid-murid: Oh! Mengalah!

Cikgu: Kurang ajar!

Murid-murid: Cukup belajar!

Cikgu: Habis aku!

Murid-murid: Kekal kami!

Cikgu: O.K. Pelajaran sudah habis!

Murid-murid: K.O. Pegajaran belum bermula!

Cikgu: Sudah, bodoh!

Murid-murid: Belum, pandai!

Cikgu: Berdiri!

Murid-murid: Duduk!

Cikgu: Saya kata UMNO salah!

Murid-murid: Kami dengar KeADILan betul!

Cikgu: Bangang kamu ni!

Murid-murid: Cerdik kami tu!

Cikgu: Rosak!

Murid-murid: Baik!

Cikgu: Kamu semua ditahan tengah hari ini!

Murid-murid: Kami dilepaskan tengah malam itu!

Cikgu: (Senyap dan mengambil buku-bukunya
keluar.)

Sebentar kemudian, loceng pun
berdering. Murid-murid berasa lega
Kerana guru yang paling ditakuti oleh mereka telah
keluar. Walau
bagaimanapun, mereka merasa bangga kerana
telah
dapat menjawab kesemua soalan cikgu tadi, tetapi
esok masih ada.Cikgu itu pasti akan datang lagi....

Bosan..Mengantuk..

Yea..saya bosan..mengantuk..next class 11.30..Fuhh..lagi sejam..nak balik rumah pun jauh..nak tegur orang pun satu junior pun tak kenal..aduhh..tension betul la..

Hujan pulak tu..Hmm..nampaknya banyak betul fashion victim kat fac nih..ape lagi..

Oh ya, ada satu kereta Kancil kat fac ni, tak tau la staff punye ke atau lecturer, off kereta tapi lampu bukak lampu besar..ni mesti perempuan nih..bukan nak discriminate, tapi biasanya camtu la. Tadi lampu terang gila..sekarang dah malap..tak lama lagi ada la yang kena pakai jumper tu..hahaha..

Isk..tak baik gelak..tapi....haha..okla..cukup2..dah bosan yang teramat nih..oh ya..ada budak perempuan muka exotic habis..haha..ape la..

Pagi ini..

Hmm..today I got CALL class at 8.30am till 10.20am.. this is like 9.45 and as you see, I'm writing this post because I'm not in the class.. Want to know why?

Well..today I got up pretty early in the morning to go to the class..and I arrived here safely at 8.10am..As I walk to the lab, I saw nobody..I mean friendly faces that telling me that they're in the same class..I reached the block around 8.15 something and then I saw Sufi..Well, that's a classmate and we just waited downstairs because it's still early and still there are no other faces around..and then few girls came..Izlin, Rina and some others.. We waited again till about 8.32 and then we walked up to the lab to check if there's anybody in it..

What a surprise, the class started earlier and we've been locked..we knocked and knocked but the lecturer ignored us..So, I just want to ask...How come?? The class supposed to start at 8.30 and yet we were locked outside for being there on time..I've been there earlier..so, what the heck? This is what I hate the most about UiTM.. The lecturers are not professional..they're emotional..I don't want to say they're stupid or something..but they're just unethical.. This semester is the most challenging I guess.. I've to deal with hardcore a**es..Come on..this is the first week and we've been treated like this.. I wish I have the power to bring this up..so that they'll learn too..

Haih..first class pon dah camni..

Na'vi

Hmm..what would I say about them...emm..In my opinion, they are always interconnected with the nature, they understand other people through the nature and put their environment in the utmost priority in their life..

Well actually, it's not just the environment..it's their identity. The land of the people or the legacy of their ancestors..The "sky people" or the humans are invading their land to get to the content of their soil without considering of the people, their life, and even the nature.. They'd rather kill women and children in order to get their pocket and belly full without thinking of other peoples' rights..

Well..If you're an understanding normal human, you can see the irony behind the movie Avatar.. It's not just a movie, it's not just a really wonderful-superb-marvellous CGI works.. It's actually a message.. a humanly message to those inhumanes.. Who do you think?

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The answer is the United States... Get it? The country who would destroy other countries with the stupidest alibi in order to reach their dirty hidden agenda.. I don't really blame the people.. I'd blame the leader..Enough said, I know you people can think about it yourself.. Compare it to the movie.. Well.. you do the thinking.. Goodnight..