The Sweetest Thing..

it's 3.15am and i still couldn't sleep..

been spending time wif Ikey..listening to songs and whatever..

like usual..missing Shaza...

she's like the sweetest thing..

yes she is..after all this time that i've been spending wif her..

i get to learn lots n lots of things..bout her..bout me..bout life..

i adore her in many ways..if she's reading this..she might ask me what n why..

haha..i can't tell u the answer dear..it's sumthing that makes me ME..

i always like to watch people..observe their behavior n stuffs..

i learn lots of things from the observation..and i don't need reasons to do that..

somehow, i learned that i have to appreciate more..

of people around me..of what i have..of what i like..of who i love..

there are ups and downs in life..we have cycles..

some cycles are big..some are small..i guess mine is quite big..

insyaAllah..with Allah's willing..i'm going up..

i'm gonna smile all the way up..

i don't wanna fake my smiles anymore..

i wanna be happy..i've always make people happy before..

but i sacrificed my own happiness..

i want this to be last..my best friends understand me the most..

and i'll be happier if Shaza can become part of my life..

OMG she's so adorable..can't stop thinking of her..can't even stop smiling because of her..

i remembered our conversation,i mean ym with her this afternoon..

i just wanna know..i want her to make her best decision..

i don't wanna force or anything..it's up to her to accept me or not..

i'm just very glad i know her..sometimes tears come rolling when i think of her..not because of sadness..

but of gratefulness..i do love u..

yeah..it's like a very short time to love somebody..

i'm sincere..and honest with my feelings..

i don't play with hearts because i know how hard it affects our life..my life..

erm..my past affected me a lot..my decisions..are prone to be bad..

no time to regret..i wanna start anew..i wanna become my real self..

well..i guess that's enough..

just another soliloquy from me..

i miss you..