Heartbreak Warfare..

Lightning strikes
Inside, my chest to keep me up at night

Dream of ways

To make you understand my pain

Clouds of sulfur in the air

Bombs are falling everywhere

It's heartbreak warfare

Once you want it to begin,

No one really ever wins

In heartbreak warfare

If you want more love,

why don't you say so?

If you want more love,

why don't you say so?

Drop his name

Push it in and twist the knife again

Watch my face

As I pretend to feel no pain

Clouds of sulfur in the air

Bombs are falling everywhere

It's heartbreak warfare

Once you want it to begin,

No one really ever wins

In heartbreak warfare.

If you want more love,

why don't you say so?

If you want more love,

why don't you say so?

Just say so...

How come the only way to know how high you get me

is to see how far I fall

God only knows how much I'd love you if you let me

but I can't break through at all.

It's a heartbreak...

I don't care if we don't sleep at all tonight

Let's just fix this whole thing now

I swear to God we're gonna get it right

If you lay your weapon down

Red wine and ambien

You're talking shit again, it's heartbreak warfare

Good to know it's all a game

Disappointment has a name, it's heartbreak warfare. 

real nice song...=)

Hari Baru..

Assalamualaikum..
Have u seen the tv series Awan Dania?I met someone just like that..haha..it's kinda funny..Well..nothing happens..don't worry..

This is like the 4th week of this year..and I learned that I should just go on..I'm not perfect choice for that person anyway..this is hard but hey..that person doesn't want you..don't you get it?Ok..Ok..I got it..

I've been sick last weekend..I even missed the Lions for Lambs viewing..I was sick but I really feel so lonely that I finally went out that night..and Amir came here..and we hang out together till I feel healthy again..that's the power of support..we don't need medicines when we have companions around us..being with them is enough to cure you.

Owh ya..I forgot to tell you about Wimpee and Wimsee..later la..got to go..tata..
Wassalam..

Rintihan Hati Seorang Insan...

Huhuhu..I feel sad..really2 sad..this lonely feeling is terrible...it's unbearable..I seriously feel like an alien..

You..yeah you..you said that we can still be friends..so are we?You totally ignore me..I know you can read this..It's really hard..

Ugh..I just need to be stronger..huhu..I'm sad..I'm going back to my hometown this weekend because my father is going to be hospitalized for his treatment..huhuhu..

Again..I feel totally miserable..Ya Allah..please give me your light and sympathy to me..please grant me someone to be with me..along my ups and downs..can understand me..and share with me..

I really want to get better..I've been changed..still changing..huhu..

Astaghfirullahalazim..

Penat..

Assalamualaikum..

Weekend baru ni sangat lah busy..Since budak-budak ni sibuk dengan Whoa Willow, saya pun dapat idea untuk buat charity jugak..I don't know why but lately I'm so into charity stuffs..I felt lost in my life and I need something to keep me up and awake. So I decided to make a charity sale by selling Naskah Cinta at DBKL Auditorium altogether with Willow show.. I discussed with my boss and he agreed, so I withdraw my own money for the total capital of the sale and provide 200 units of Naskah Cinta for the charity sale.

This is my own project, my idea, my effort, my money for my own charity giving..Alhamdulillah, the sale was good. Many people supported me and even the VIPs show their support and feel amazed of my effort. This is not just a sale, it's for charity and dakwah..If the person who bought Naskah Cinta from me and read it, I got pahala too..Many people like it..There are some people whom I never expect them to buy, also bought from me..Even a friend who was once hate me. Alhamdulillah..Allah is always fair and loving to His servants..

On last Sunday morning, before I went to KL, I joined my car club to a convoy to Bukit Cerakah and I managed to promote and sell Naskah Cinta there too..Most of them bought it and I feel very happy and thakful to the kindness of my fellow friends..They really are wonderful and true friends.. So far I managed to sell 100 Naskah Cinta during the last weekend.

Not to forget, I amalkan zikir and Bismillah 1000 kali supaya dimurahkan rezeki dan diberi kejayaan. It works..I also managed to promote my new blog for sharing some knowledge and for useful and meaningful products that I'm selling, www.everywhereknowledge.blogspot.com where I'm planning to market my products and also share useful information with other people out there..I want to live to inspire..

Yesterday and today, I tried to promote Naskah Cinta at my faculty and Alhamdulillah, I sold 20 so far and more coming..many people like it.. Owh ya, as for the company, I was invited to be the designer for the next batch of products..I will prepare many designs and choice of colors so that people can have a variety of choices. Due to my IT knowledge, as usual, I am also in charge in IT and technical control at the company.

Alhamdulillah..I'm glad..God please help me be useful in my life..amiin..

Here are some pictures taken during Willow..

Cerah

Subhanallah..what a wonderful and shiny day today..I start my day with coffee and lazing around in my bed while my housemate is busy getting ready to go out..he says that he wants to explore Shah Alam by bus..well, let him be..I feel like a native Shah Alam people now and he's the newbie..so, do anything you want..

I'm still thinking what to do next..huhuhu..I used to go out with loved one or my friends when we have day offs or free periods..but now nobody is going to invite me to go out with them..feel alienated a bit though..ok..not a bit..it's a lot..well..who am I to them now.

It's ok..I'll live..Owh ya..I think I'm going to Al Baasith to hang out with Abang Habib Shah and talk about dakwah..perhaps we can design a few things for our product..Owh..another thing..I have to prepare some website templates for the company who hires me to create their company website..I think I better start on that one first...right after I take my bath..haha..see ya..Wassalam..

Allah Maha Adil..

Whenever you feel bad about something..and you pray..you be positive in mind, that God gives us sorrow in the morning..but He'll reward the happiness in the afternoon..Alhamdulillah..that's what I feel today..

Despite the unprofessional situation I have this morning..Allah grants me two wonderful lecturers for the next two classes in the afternoon..

I like lots of things about today..I don't know why..Today is a bright and shiny day..seems like giving hope..Owh..and I saw her..glad to see her looking fine..

Well actually I just finished my class just now..Now I stop by at the library, just trying to have a peace of mind..
Lots of things going on inside..hmmm...be strong..

Ni memang betul2 dah takde kerja..

Saje je nak post mende ni.maybe dah ramai baca kot..tapi boleh la..
Ni kira untuk cikgu2 atau bakal cikgu la..haha..selamat membaca..dan merapik pada hari ini..
Oh ya..takde kena mengena dengan politik..jangan salah faham..

Murid-murid: Selamat pagi, cikgu.

Cikgu: (Menengking) Mengapa selamat pagi saja?
Petang dan malam, awak doakan saya tak
selamatkah?

Murid-murid: Selamat pagi, petang dan malam,
cikgu!

Cikgu: Panjang sangat tu! Tak pernah pun dibuat
oleh orang lain! Katakan saja selamat sejahtera!
Senang dan penuh bermakna. Lagipun ucapan ini
meliputi semua masa dan keadaan.

Murid-murid: Selamat sejahtera, cikgu!

Cikgu: Sama-sama, duduk! Dengar sini baik-baik.
Hari ini cikgu akan menguji kamu semua tentang
perkataan berlawan. Apabila cikgu sebutkan
perkataannya, kamu semua mesti menjawab
dengan
cepat lawan bagi perkataan-perkataan itu, faham?

Murid-murid: Faham, cikgu!

Cikgu: Saya tak mahu ada apa-apa gangguan.

Murid-murid: (senyap)

Cikgu: Pandai!

Murid-murid: Bodoh!

Cikgu: Tinggi!

Murid-murid: Rendah!

Cikgu: Jauh!

Murid-murid: Dekat!

Cikgu: Keadilan!

Murid-murid: UMNO!

Cikgu: Salah!

Murid-murid: Betul!

Cikgu: Bodoh!

Murid-murid: Pandai!

Cikgu: Bukan!

Murid-murid: Ya!

Cikgu: Oh Tuhan!

Murid-murid: Oh Hamba!

Cikgu: Dengar sini!

Murid-murid: Dengar situ!

Cikgu: Diam!

Murid-murid: Bising!

Cikgu: Itu bukan pertanyaan, bodoh!

Murid-murid: Ini adalah jawapan, pandai!

Cikgu: Mati aku!

Murid-murid: Hidup kami!

Cikgu: Rotan baru kamu tau!

Murid-murid: Akar lama tak tau!

Cikgu: Malas aku nak mengajar kamu semua!

Murid-murid: Rajin kami tak belajar cikgu!

Cikgu: Kamu gila!

Murid-murid: Kami siuman!

Cikgu: Cukup! Cukup!

Murid-murid: Kurang! Kurang!

Cikgu: Sudah! Sudah!

Murid-murid: Belum! Belum!

Cikgu: Mengapa kamu semua ini bodoh
sangat?

Murid-murid: Sebab kami semua itu pandai sikit!

Cikgu: Oh! Melawan!

Murid-murid: Oh! Mengalah!

Cikgu: Kurang ajar!

Murid-murid: Cukup belajar!

Cikgu: Habis aku!

Murid-murid: Kekal kami!

Cikgu: O.K. Pelajaran sudah habis!

Murid-murid: K.O. Pegajaran belum bermula!

Cikgu: Sudah, bodoh!

Murid-murid: Belum, pandai!

Cikgu: Berdiri!

Murid-murid: Duduk!

Cikgu: Saya kata UMNO salah!

Murid-murid: Kami dengar KeADILan betul!

Cikgu: Bangang kamu ni!

Murid-murid: Cerdik kami tu!

Cikgu: Rosak!

Murid-murid: Baik!

Cikgu: Kamu semua ditahan tengah hari ini!

Murid-murid: Kami dilepaskan tengah malam itu!

Cikgu: (Senyap dan mengambil buku-bukunya
keluar.)

Sebentar kemudian, loceng pun
berdering. Murid-murid berasa lega
Kerana guru yang paling ditakuti oleh mereka telah
keluar. Walau
bagaimanapun, mereka merasa bangga kerana
telah
dapat menjawab kesemua soalan cikgu tadi, tetapi
esok masih ada.Cikgu itu pasti akan datang lagi....

Bosan..Mengantuk..

Yea..saya bosan..mengantuk..next class 11.30..Fuhh..lagi sejam..nak balik rumah pun jauh..nak tegur orang pun satu junior pun tak kenal..aduhh..tension betul la..

Hujan pulak tu..Hmm..nampaknya banyak betul fashion victim kat fac nih..ape lagi..

Oh ya, ada satu kereta Kancil kat fac ni, tak tau la staff punye ke atau lecturer, off kereta tapi lampu bukak lampu besar..ni mesti perempuan nih..bukan nak discriminate, tapi biasanya camtu la. Tadi lampu terang gila..sekarang dah malap..tak lama lagi ada la yang kena pakai jumper tu..hahaha..

Isk..tak baik gelak..tapi....haha..okla..cukup2..dah bosan yang teramat nih..oh ya..ada budak perempuan muka exotic habis..haha..ape la..

Pagi ini..

Hmm..today I got CALL class at 8.30am till 10.20am.. this is like 9.45 and as you see, I'm writing this post because I'm not in the class.. Want to know why?

Well..today I got up pretty early in the morning to go to the class..and I arrived here safely at 8.10am..As I walk to the lab, I saw nobody..I mean friendly faces that telling me that they're in the same class..I reached the block around 8.15 something and then I saw Sufi..Well, that's a classmate and we just waited downstairs because it's still early and still there are no other faces around..and then few girls came..Izlin, Rina and some others.. We waited again till about 8.32 and then we walked up to the lab to check if there's anybody in it..

What a surprise, the class started earlier and we've been locked..we knocked and knocked but the lecturer ignored us..So, I just want to ask...How come?? The class supposed to start at 8.30 and yet we were locked outside for being there on time..I've been there earlier..so, what the heck? This is what I hate the most about UiTM.. The lecturers are not professional..they're emotional..I don't want to say they're stupid or something..but they're just unethical.. This semester is the most challenging I guess.. I've to deal with hardcore a**es..Come on..this is the first week and we've been treated like this.. I wish I have the power to bring this up..so that they'll learn too..

Haih..first class pon dah camni..

Na'vi

Hmm..what would I say about them...emm..In my opinion, they are always interconnected with the nature, they understand other people through the nature and put their environment in the utmost priority in their life..

Well actually, it's not just the environment..it's their identity. The land of the people or the legacy of their ancestors..The "sky people" or the humans are invading their land to get to the content of their soil without considering of the people, their life, and even the nature.. They'd rather kill women and children in order to get their pocket and belly full without thinking of other peoples' rights..

Well..If you're an understanding normal human, you can see the irony behind the movie Avatar.. It's not just a movie, it's not just a really wonderful-superb-marvellous CGI works.. It's actually a message.. a humanly message to those inhumanes.. Who do you think?

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The answer is the United States... Get it? The country who would destroy other countries with the stupidest alibi in order to reach their dirty hidden agenda.. I don't really blame the people.. I'd blame the leader..Enough said, I know you people can think about it yourself.. Compare it to the movie.. Well.. you do the thinking.. Goodnight..

Lega..

Alhamdulillah..
Lega rasa hati..
I've changed all of my classes..but not so sure if this is the best choice..

Alhamdulillah..
I managed to her a little Naskah Cinta..
And feels so glad that she likes it..
I'll give a bigger one when the next stock comes in..

Well..living alone and far from friends in 17 makes me feel a lot mature..
And requires lots of responsibilities..coz I am on my own now..
Ya Allah..please give me strength to be more responsible to myself..

I need lots of support now..

I Guess

I guess I have to change my class..

I guess I have to draw back from everybody..

I guess I have to forget everything about that particular past..

I guess I'll be ignored by people that used to say hi to me..

I guess I've lost..or losing..

I guess I'm failing to control my feeling anymore..

Ya Allah..what a great set back for me to start with this year..please guide me..
and to that particular person, u don't have to blog about it..I got ur message already..
please take it out..it really2 hurts..it's ok not to mention me in ur life anymore..I admit all my mistakes..











huhuhuhuhu..:'(

Azam..

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Saya mulakan coretan ini dengan perasaan yang agak sedih dan hambar..insyaAllah saya akan berkongsi kemudian nanti. Lembaran baru dalam hidup kini bermula..Tahun baru selalu sinonim dengan azam baru. Apakah azam yang difikirkan? Banyak sekali di minda kecil ini..namun kalau sekadar berazam tapi tiada effort takde gunanya..InsyaAllah kita mulakan satu persatu..Harapan agar tahun ini bermula dengan baik dan semua berakhir dengan lebih baik..Apa pun semuanya terletak pada diri sendiri..

Tahun ini saya telah berpindah ke kediaman baru..Jauh dari rakan-rakan..Terasa seperti memulakan hidup yang baru.Alhamdulillah rumah ini selesa, tuan punya pun sangat peramah, kediaman dua bilik ini saya kongsi bersama seorang sahabat..semoga rumah ini selamat daripada segala ancaman anasir2 yang tidak baik..Amin..

Hati terasa agak berat untuk melangkah ke kampus tahun ini..seberat batuan gunung..tak tau la kenapa..Mungkin ada hikmah di sebalik perasaan ini..Mungkin kerana kejahilan dan kesilapan lampau..Ampunkanlah diriku Ya Allah..Berikan hidayah kepada hamba-Mu ini jadikan rahmatilah diriku dalam segala keadaan..

Tahun ini juga kumulakan seorang diri..teman di hati telah pergi..dan saya gembira melihat dia gembira..demi sayang dan cinta saya lepaskan dia..rahmatilah dia Ya Allah..semoga dia berjaya dalam setiap bidang yang diceburinya..

Setakat ini saja dulu..mungkin kerna hati ini berat..tenangkan hatiku Ya Allah..Wassalam..